Revival Of Life.......

Its been awhile since i write my blog...
at first.. i want to use my blog as a medium to spread what ever i know about health.. life.. love and everything for a better life...
but... my life has always been up side down..
thing that occur that made me sad..
that bring down my spirit.... a cutter that always cut my rosy spirit...
thing like that.. that had change my mind about my blog......






i read an article of Jojo Struy...
a lovely lady that inspire me to use my blog as a kept dairy of my self....
she says "don't bother what other people going to say about my blog.. my thing inside my blog.. i write everything that happen to me in my blog.."
and i've been thingking...
maybe this is the best way to express my self.. untuk keluarkan apa yang terbuku di hati...
to wash out all my stress....
so.. i think that i should the same thing....

banyak yang berlaku this past 5 months....
i'm barely had my sleep....
i'm working my butt off....
i'm sacrificing my self for other people....
and had forgotten how to pleasure and endure my self.. indulge my self....
i had long forgotten that....

then .. i ve been thingking..
the purpose of my life....



bukankah semua orang ingn kaya.. did i want the same thing?
yes.. of course i want to be rich.....
but.. at the same time.. i want to be happy..
but at the time now... i see a pathetic of my self...
last nite, i ve been watching a drama movie called sweet spy all nite long.....
even though my world is not as great as Han Yuu II in the movie....
but.. im still want to be the greatest in my own world....
Han Yuu give up his life as a greatest spy for a women that he love.....
would i do the same thing if i meet the right person.....
i think i would.... if the person love me as much i love her...
even though the 'her' still not exist.... i wil be waiting for the ime to come...


i don t want a great life as Han Yuu..
but.. i always dream of having...
money to travel all around the world....
a quite medium house .. with a few rooms....
a nice rest room with jakuzzi.. where i can have my own time for myself...
a small garden where we plant roses on the other side and vegetables on the other side....
a few lovely kids ....
a nce kitchen where we can cook together and having meal together...
hahahahaha
what a dream......

but.. thats my dream.....
so.. i said to my self... that i have to work hard to earn my dream.....
and for now...
i want to have proper life or my self....
dream is dream taht we have to chase..
but the reality now that i have to endure....


i want to fell the lost feeling of self pamper...
so..i told my self that i should get my self a few things...
an aroma candle to be use every time i feel stress....
work out to have a healthy body...
eat healthy food...
and i want to quit smoking...
hahahahhaahha

YES...
i want to have a new life..
a new proper life...
work hard to earn my dream.. but at the same time fell happy inside and outside...
i dont want that to be just my dream...
i want to make it happen...
i want to feel a live...
i want to be alive.....

now.... i do really hope.. even things happen to make me feel sad....
i will endure it..
no matter what...
:)